I had to evaluate my diet recently. For three days, I had to write down and record everything I ate, in specific amounts and items, and then put it into a program that broke it down in nutrients, vitamins and minerals. It compared it to my recommended requirements and gave me a general overview of how I ate.
The results could have just said: “You eat like garbage and we worry about you.”
I know I eat like trash. I am a forager at work. I don’t sit down or stop for regular meals during the day and my only meal tends to be dinner, which I don’t make well-rounded at ALL. Example? A queso burrito from Qdoba.
Let me break down this beautiful piece of work for you, if you’ve never had one. Take a bowl, fill it with white rice. Dump black beans all over it, then pico de gallo, then a bunch of shredded cheese, followed by melted cheese and sour cream.
This bit of gold? I could eat it all day long. But aside from the black beans and the tomatoes, it seems to have the nutritional value of a sponge.
It also makes me feel guilty when I eat it and that, my friends, is the crappiest side dish of them all. It ruins your choices, your enjoyment. You cut yourself off or eat too much. You read too much into labels, kick yourself for eating it later or feel awful for eating a REAL meal.
There’s a saying, “Eat to live, not live to eat” and I understand that. Your life shouldn’t revolve around what you put in your mouth, but what happens when it does? I don’t count down the hours until I can have food, but my life has started revolving around what I put in my mouth and when.
Should I eat this late? Should I eat this early? Do I really need to eat lunch since I’ve snacked here and there all morning? Does a huge thing of vegetables with rice really count as food? Was that cookie really necessary?
It makes me hate food and I don’t want to hate food. I love food. But how do you get over the screwball guilt?
So you’re stuck with this part of my journey, too, friends. Eating well, eating balanced and eating without guilt. It’s going to be a lonnnng journey.